The State of Affairs

a gasp in the dark
a tear no one will see
i'll be waking up without you
or what is left of me
perhaps it would have been easier
had i not been wound up
wrapped around
this possible future i could never expect
but now i must go on without you
start life anew
but there will always be regret.
could things have been handled different?
could we have tried harder to be
what our love needed?
perhaps haste got the best of us
conclusions drawn to quick
but knowing that i walked away
away from my future
my past
my all
_{i feel so sick}


life teaches us that meditation is the true path to enlightenment. be it spiritual, sexual, emotional, we must first reflect before we can correctly act. i still think we should meditate. but until then, here i shall await. don\t loose sight of where you came from, and please just never forget. i'll have your tattoo to remind me, but what memento have i left?

my girlfriend's quest for harder ways to party
is really starting to come between us
why can't things be as simple as they were?

Talked to my ex today for the first time in at least a year and a half or so. It was what I expected - she seemed the same, I'm the same, it was nice. We only talked for a second, no need to push things, I just saw her online and figured, shit, it's been years, why the hell not say hi? Our orbits crossed for a moment and life goes on, as does the universe.

All I want
another night alone
nothing between us
nobody on the phone

All I want
is the life we once had
always on the same side
was it all that bad?

All I want
is someone who can appreciate the sway
understand that it takes two to make it work this way

All I want
is another chance to start
another morning anew
is it too much to ask
just to be happy with you?